New Ohio Review  is a national literary journal produced by Ohio University’s Creative Writing Program. Now in its nineteenth year, NOR has been the recipient of a National Endowment for the Arts grant and support from the Ohio Arts Council. Work from our pages consistently appears in the Best American series and the annual Pushcart anthology .

Our print issues appear in the fall and spring. We feature online editions in June and December. Our issue 35 was released in February and is available now ! Portions of it are also available below.

Issue 35 Now Available!

*Cover Art by Elizabeth Decker

Issue 35 features the 2024 NOR Fiction Contest winning story “Mothers Above and Below” by Abby Horowitz, selected by Kate Bernheimer; the 2024 Nonfiction Contest-winning essay Survival of the Unfit: A Retrospective” by Jodie Noel Vinson, selected by Lily Hoáng; and the 2024 NOR Poetry Contest-winning poems “Covenant” and “It All Comes Down” by Gail Griffin and “Thinking About My Father’s Erector Set from 1948” by Jen Siraganian, selected by Naomi Shihab Nye.

In this issue, there is new poetry from Deborah Allbritain, Lory Bedikian, Susan Browne, Johnny Cate, Shelly Cato, Robin Rosen Chang, Hee-June Choi, Suzanne Cleary, Tim Craven, Julie Danho, Gregory Djanikian, Joanne Dominique Dwyer, Nancy Eimers, Elton Glaser, Jeffrey Harrison, Madalyn Hochendoner, John Hodgen, Ken Holland, Michael Derrick Hudson, Sally Rosen Kindred, Rose Lambert-Sluder, David Dodd Lee, Kelan Nee, William Olsen, Susan Blackwell Ramsey, Joyce Schmid, John Sieracki, Adrienne Su, David Thoreen, William Wenthe, and Emma Wynn. 

In addition to the NOR Contest-winners, we’re thrilled to present Rose Skelton’s essay “Fruiting Bodies” and stories by Craig Bernardini, Michael Carlson, Maria McLeod, Kaitlin Roberts, and Charlie Schneider.

Our Feature topic is Dance as Joy and Resistance, and we are proud to publish essays by Apoorva Bradshaw-Mittal, Mary Jo Firth Gillett, Therese Gleason, Sara Henning, Jennifer Schomburg Kanke, Christopher Kempf, Jesse Lee Kercheval, Hugh Martin, Sarah Nance, and Bonnie Proudfoot.

We hope you enjoy Issue 35, which you can order by visiting our online marketplace . Or, read selections of it by scrolling down.

Thanks for reading,-The Editors

Of A Million Earths

By Susan Browne

One million earths could fit inside the sunThe thought of a million earths

makes me want to be a bee falling asleep inside a flowerIt’s a fact: sometimes while gathering nectar bees get tired

& put their three pairs of legs over their five eyesto block the sun which is halfway through its journey

of ten billion yearsMy mother loved sunsets at the beach

I remember once in Santa Barbaraour chairs close together on the sand

There’s no way to fact-check thisor that we chewed Juicy Fruit gum

& talked about things we’d never shared beforeor that I kept looking at the freckles

on her knees because they made mefeel peaceful as a bee dreaming inside a dahlia

A billion years since that day with my motheror seems like it

Her middle name was Marie
I brought a boombox to the church to play Ave Maria

A cold morning although the sun was shiningon the only known planet in the universe where life exists.


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Small Project

By William Wenthe

Two autumns ago, after our home
had broken up, my child and I
were left in a rugged way. If I were to paint it
with tempera on wet gesso, on a wall
in some palace chamber, it would be
a man carrying his daughter
who is holding a lantern for him.
This autumn we are settling in
to a new house; but that same pain—as if
the season, not us, were remembering it—
comes prying. Today, the same day
I begin the pills I’ve asked
the doctor for, whatever space
in the mind they might afford, I’m starting
a small project, a simple rack
for my daughter’s closet. It’s a habit
of making things, passed to me
by my father, but scant measure
to the skills of the man who made
a perfectly scaled four-poster bed
for a sister’s doll, as well as the life-size
bedroom where for years I slept.

Looking for a layer against
the season’s first chill, I reach for
a folded sweater on the high shelf
of my closet, one I’ve never worn before.
Though it’s thoroughly worn: shot-gunned by moths,
a ragged suture I sewed where the V-neck meets
the breastbone. It was twenty years ago,
this time of year, beginning
of the season for sweaters,
my father died. How strange now
to feel this sweater he wore, one
that I remember him in, cling to me
tight as old clothes I’ve outgrown.

Still I keep it on,
something I’ll work within
like this house where we now live,
with room for the two of us, but
small enough we have to imagine hard
how best it can be filled. Which is why
I’ve sawn a white pine board,
and will sand it, varnish, sand again;
and measure and drill, to fix the hooks
to hang the jackets, hoodies, and her prized
cow-print pajamas, now floor-strewn
like debris flown from the bed of a pickup.
She may or may not pick up
on the idea, also passed down, that one small thing
works into another, larger one: a jacket
on a hook, a hook on a board, fastened
to a wall holding up a roof, enclosing
the ongoing, unfinished project
of a house. The work, the daily intentions—
and the luck (all the apartments shelled
to ruins by one-eyed missiles)—the luck
to even have any of this—
careless, rich, flamboyant chance.


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Nazarene Dream

By Joanne Dominique Dwyer

I’m walking in the forest with the mythic and shirtless Nazarene.
He juts out his chin, orienting me to birds in the sky.
He does not name them, but says  Mira,  they are inside you.
Next, he gestures toward the silver fish glinting in the stream,
     also nameless, incandescent, gilled.
He is wearing capri-length drawstring pants and prison crocs,
admonishes me not to trust experts.

I am looking for signs of scars on his back, when he staggers
and trips on a rusted can in the switchgrass.
He confides he is saddened priests have lost the proclivity
    for contemplating constellations and cultivating orchids.
Says how pathetic it is that he has seen priests sitting at slot machines
    chain-smoking, looking more like saturnine wax figures
than  supraliminal  men (at or above the threshold of consciousness).

Jesus senses my hearing is waning and moves closer to me.
Close enough that I feel strands of his hair brush against the bones
of my cheek and the lobes of my ear as he says, Most humans
are unaware that seed pods make a pact with the wind
to aid in the proliferation of beauty. And semantics relates
not only to semen, but to the spinning of hand-dyed yarn.

As I walk behind him, I stare at the contours of his sweat-luminous,
bark-colored calves as he climbs over barren boulders.
No one in their right mind should expect much
    from marriage to another human being, he adds.
Then, straightaway, we are standing in a grove
of chokecherry, the velocity of the wind is mounting;
    afternoon shadows are lengthening. 

Together, we ingest handfuls of wild cherries.
They look like oxblood marbles or the bloodshot eyes of martyrs.
    I’m getting cold in the high altitude.
I ask him how to safeguard against incessant rupture.
    Unhobble the horses and sing the old songs, he replies.
And how to forgive a priest?
He does not swivel his body to me, seems isolate.
A soundless blackout ensues.

And just before the dream extinguishes,
Jesus wipes the smudged mascara from the cage of my face—
angles his torso down like a four-legged animal
pawing the earth and unlaces my combat boots.
Then re-laces them tighter, as if to protect
    my ankles on the descent.


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Kids Running After a Car

By Hee-June Choi

after the Korean War

Asphalt covered half the street; the rest was
overgrown with sunberries we ate. At the sound of a horn,
we ran to the car; in its bluish smoke, we saw
our future like a 3-D film. When my friend

JC tied his feet to the back bumper of a jeep
to sneak a ride, its engine started;
market people screamed as his bleeding head
was dragged for a hundred yards.

Our most daring venture was to the mountain cave
to dig out bullets for spinning tops’ axles.
But we had to cross locals’ territory––my forehead
still bears the scar of a thrown stone.

These road brawls ended when someone
in the cave shouted: Corpses!—soldiers in a mass grave.
Yet, those were carefree days. Dropping by any house
at mealtime, I ate with them if they laid me a place

—if not, I played next to their dinner table.
House doors were left unlocked:
what thief would steal an empty bag of rice?
In summer, we slept in the public pool’s storage shack,

no parents looking for us.
It was the children’s utopia: what we didn’t have,
we didn’t need. Even now, walking my suburban street
late at night, I snoop around for remnants of those days:

that sour tailpipe smoke must be a shimmer
in the air somewhere on Earth.


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Self-Portrait After Three Years in Outer Space

By Michael Derrick Hudson

My bones thin to slivers inside my filthy rig. I’m the wheezy ghost
haunting a plastic suit of armor, the unshriven soul

expiring within an infidel. My dreams run antiseptic, anachronistic
and celibate while the past keeps unspooling somewhere

behind my pineal gland. Screws loose, I make up all sorts of stuff
to tell them, happy things with a convincing kink

of lonesome. They say it’s for the greater good as my DNA chars

like bacon at the edges and a universe tumbles past my bulletproof
porthole. A mechanical lung, a toothpaste tube supper,

the chemical toilet where every one of my clods gets categorized,

bagged and sterilized. I perform my tasks upside-down, tapping
an antiseptic keyboard or watering my million-dollar

seedlings and teaching a herd of space worms zero-gravity lessons
of reward and punishment. Mission Control applauds

these efforts remotely, electronically. On cue, I’ll smile for the kids
and urge them to work hard and stay in school, reading

with a pixilated grin from an inviolable script
plugging science, math, the digital approach to all our catastrophes . . .

But off-camera I coin better names for the Mission: Jugged Chimp.
Scrubbed Purpose. The Immaculate Reduction.

Canned Epiphany. Celestial Funk. Deficit Boondoggle. Minerva

Shrugged. Apollo Wept. My apostasy runs Ptolemaic, heliocentric,
chthonic, wrong. Patched-in and monitored, salaried

and pensioned, my pulse ping ping pings . I’m the life-support blip
on a faraway screen, another protocol, another

something else evaluated, budgeted, and all gotten down to a science.


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Heaven

By Michael Derrick Hudson

Almost everything got in. Even the dinosaurs stomp aroundthe hot tubs and gazebos, haloes shimmering over

their massive intelligent skulls, grunting Alleluias . Atheists

made it too, although they have to wear little red beanies sowe know who to gently tease for corporeal

hopelessness and infidelity: Cheer up, Christopher Hitchens!

After a while, you grow used to the bliss: not once twangingthe wrong note, lathering and shampooing

each other, sexless, in tepid frothy pools of serotonin, loving

equally each one of my great-great-great-great-grandmas andsecond cousins twice-removed and each one

of my dead cats taking turns to rub, purring,
against my hairless ankles. Princess! Plato! Hodge-Podge!

Rubber mice. Mandatory self-esteem. Beauty lockedin perpetuity. The standard-issue smile. The perfect Boss . . .

So mostly I like it here. The reassurance
of the unambiguously blameless, the expulsion of froideur

and doubt. It’s perpetual sunrise over a greeny-green gardenwhere our only lion pads by, obliged to nuzzle

our celestial lamb chewing its celestial cud. But no flyblownscat, no blood-stained tooth. No hangovers.

No broken hearts. Sure, sometimes I miss a liony feral glint,an unappeasable urge, the gross sentimentality

of loss. Sometimes I just want something careworn, regretful,dilapidated, or stupid. Sometimes you just want

to fuck with them. Today, I got a demerit for goofing aroundwhen ordering lunch: scorched coffee, black as hell,

a day-old chocolate donut with sprinkles, a quart of rye, and

a very specific spring lamb on a skewer, half-raw
half-charred. Not funny! But in Heaven records get expunged.

There’re no penalties, no parole. There’s nowhere else to go . . .


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It’s Like This Every Night

By Sally Rosen Kindred

Waiting for the elevator, you hear
the dark floors chime, you
hand over her pocketbook
and put on your gloves, you try
to convince her to get on
when it comes. You’re with me,
you say, and this is the only way
to get down to the ground
.
She doesn’t believe you,
probably because this
is not her blue coat and she knows
she is dead, which you’d know too
if you’d just wake up.
But you go on sleeping
like the fool
you are, folding your body
close to itself under
the heavy sheets, your hand
touching your own
sleeve, understanding
it’s hers, waiting for the doors
to open, waiting
quietly, like she taught you,
to go down and out the lobby
together into the
blue-white city
to see the snow.


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This is It

By John Hodgen

Suffice it to say we’re all that we have. We’re tagged. We’re it,
despite the occasional monoliths that pop up in Nevada deserts
begging us to believe we host astral visitors or nascent iterations
of ourselves. All in all it’s pretty clear. It’s just us who keep showing
up, and who, given enough time to gather the shards and bits of our
thoughts, are trying, albeit admittedly, intermittently, to figure it out,
the it being this-messy-business-fix-that-we’re-in, this requisite
dog and pony miracle show. It’s in all our next breaths, our Where
did it go?, I had it right here
, the it that we’ve lost, that we held so tight
in the palms of our hands the way the prophet Isaiah says we are
held. The it long gone now, like eternity, like Puttin’ on the Ritz,
the itsy-bitsy spider, the Iditarod without snow. Heavy hits there,
though we know (do we not?) that children hold the half-lit world
in their eyes each night, holding out for one more Stuart Little ,
one more peep out of us before drifting off in little candle boats,
planes and canoes, as if they’re in some children’s edition of Casablanca
in Sanskrit, with their letters of transit to infinite, immaculate sleep.


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Poem For Emily Dickinson, Referenced Twice in Sophie’s Choice, and for Sophie, of Course, Hounded, Tormented on the Train Platform at Auschwitz by the Nazi SS Commandant into Deciding Which of Her Two Children She Has to Give Over, Consign to the Gas Chambers in Order to Save the Other, How She Chooses, as She Must, as Any of Us Would, Despite What We Say, for Saving One at Least From the Flames, Thinking, Cold, so Cold, the Glaciers, the Rivers of Our Lives Suddenly Shifting; and for Sophie’s Nameless ESL Instructor at Brooklyn College After the War, Saying at the End of Class Soon You Will All be Speaking English in Your Sleep, and Quoting Emily’s Poem About Death Kindly Stopping for Us; and for Sophie’s Classmate Whom Sophie Asks to Tell Her the Poet’s Name Again, Who Says, “Émile, Émile Dickens”; But Most of All, This Poem is Not For, is Decidedly Against the Assistant Librarian, the Shame of All Librarians, the Condescending, Supercilious Prig Who Tells Sophie She Must Mean Charles Dickens, the 19th Century British Novelist, That There is no Such Poet as Émile Dickens, Causing Sophie to Faint Dead Away on the Library Floor

By John Hodgen

Plead with me, pray for the real Émile Dickens, unknown novelist/poet/autodidact, that he be found,
culled, called from the lost regions of the unimagined dead, with all due speed, by acclamation. May he be
remembered for saying that truth and death are a woman disrobing in heaven and also in hell. May he be
hailed as laureate, as Sophie’s last choice. May his every word be revered, his magnum opus rediscovered,
The Chosen One , each word a new child with a soup bowl only asking for more. May he know no shame
nor dereliction. May his ranks never close. May he have all new clothes. May he be lauded for leaving
his bleak house, his hard times, for enduring all of our twists, for exceeding our greatest expectations.
May Death itself die like John Donne, like bloody Keats, hapless Chuzzlewit or faithful Micawber.
May it be that Death’s heartless heart yearns. May Death die in a library sumptuous, vast as Parnassus
among copper fields and forests of urns. May he die hearing there’s no such author as Life, that Life
is pure fiction, a story, a poem, that he must venture alone into a book depository, where presidents
and dreams are killed, where everything burns. May there always be a poet named Emily or Émile,
waiting at a train station, another train coming in, how it chuffs and begins, how one might glance
out a window for just a moment askance to see someone feverishly and forever beating the dickens
out of a poem the way Dylan dropped the lyrics to “Subterranean Homesick Blues” on oversized
hand-lettered cards with Allen Ginsberg standing in an alley in London outside the Savoy Hotel
where words and worlds coincide with everyone we’ve ever loved and everyone who’s died,
carriages pulling up to the station outside, hundreds of them, millions, on which we can ride.


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Fruiting Bodies

By Rose Skelton

I meet Conor in the spruce forest. He whistles his whereabouts; I return his call. It’s mid-July and a mild summer wind breathes through the trees, a low moan that envelops us in the cool island gloam. I follow the sound and scour the ground for what mushrooms might be growing: summer chanterelle, puffball, deceiver. It’s the kind of forensic looking that I begin in July and don’t give up until the trees are naked and the hills are the color of rust. A fast, careful, sieving of images—birch leaf, tree root, crisp packet, coin—a longrange and close-up searching for the gifts of this Scottish island: the edible, the poisonous, the one in a million. The friend that took me two years to meet, though we lived in the same small town. The mushrooms he taught me how to find.

It is the first year of the pandemic and we have fled Texas where my wife, Nomi, has a job at a university, for the Hebridean island that is—was—my home. Nomi desperately wants a baby, has done for a decade, long before we met. She and I have been fighting about it for four years, as long as we’ve been together. But we are thirty-nine and forty-one now and it is probably too late. What do I want? I want not to argue about it anymore, not to have to go through the high-cost, low-chance medical procedures that I fear will rip us apart. I want not to have to choose sperm from a roster of men who claim to look like Tom Hanks. I want not to bring up a child in America.

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Bloodstain on Storm Door

By Jeffrey Harrison

That’s my blood, I’d wager, dried
on the white lower panel of the storm door,
having dripped from some small cut
as I came in from working in the yard.
Who knows how long it’s been there,
or how the drop became a mark
more singular and graceful
than any I could have made on purpose,

yet seems (as I bend down
to look more closely) considered
and spontaneous at once—
two quick strokes, one curving up,
the other down, like a figure rendered
by a calligrapher’s brush, with ink
from my own body, as if beauty might come
from even the slightest wound.


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Spider Hands

By Tim Craven

Rare and degenerative, the condition arrived
without warning: a Tarantula for an index finger,
its swollen mocha abdomen fused to the knuckle
as though the lines embossed across my palm
were the net of its silk-spun web.
Then a Huntsman where I’d last seen
my right thumb. Doctors counted the eyes,
plucked legs for biopsies;
an experimental ointment was prescribed.
I made do with my hands stuffed in my pockets,
opening jars in an elbow’s crook.
I almost forgot my plight until two small Sheet Weavers
busied themselves replacing my pinkies.
Then the Trapdoor, the Wolf, the Brown Recluse.

Why me? Why not the neighbor’s son?
I’d chop off my arms were I able to grip
the necessary instrument.
My only solace comes at night
when the inquisitive pointed fingers
of children are tucked up in bed.
I drink whiskey and ginger through a straw
and telephone a friend whose own suffering
makes me feel as though I’ve won a prize.
She has experts stumped: an inoperable alligator
is wrapped around her intestines and any day now
its merciless jaws will snap shut for good.


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The Smoker

By Johnny Cate

One kid named Ryan got so mad when he struck out
he pounded his forehead on the dugout wall until he bled—
there was a sticky red globule on the green cinder block.
His mother chain-smoked and paced every ball game,
screaming through each season from the bleachers.
By the time we were too big for Little League, her vocal cords
had corroded and only a rasp remained, like an HVAC
on the fritz. That final year, you could still hear her, stomping
in her acid-washed mom jeans, gravel cringing beneath her feet
as a toothed breeze blew through her ragged esophagus.
It always seemed appropriate her name was Tammy .
  After every game,
    we’d line up at concessions to get a soda—
in odd vogue then was a concoction that mixed all the syrups
into one super-flavor we kids affectionately called a suicide .
Once, sipping my suicide, I walked behind the stand to find
Tammy having a coughing fit against the bricks. One hand
on the wall, one in a fist in front of her mouth, she hacked and
trembled as her cig’s orange-red ember did a pissed-off glisten.
When she turned her eye to me, her pupil was constricted
to a black prick, a period of fear in its bloodshot context,
and I felt my youth being drawn out of me like a drag.
I neither moved nor broke Tammy’s gaze until she broke mine—
in the oasis of a clear breath, she looked up into the night sky.


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Wolf Moon Blues

By Johnny Cate

    This one’s so lit it gives the sun
  a run for its money—Wolf Moon
on the come-up, shadow-casting

    past midnight, mouthing lesser light who?
  The fanged fox skull I found beside the dry
creek bed cries for the rest of its body

    and the back-to-black Winehouse
  mountains flex like the scapulae
of a gaunt predator on the prowl.

    You could sell me hell before the idea
  these trees’ll ever be green again—
the two-toothed insomniac who

    clerks the Tractor Supply could check
  me out, laser this barcode burned
on my heart. I’ll pay in exact change.

    I’ll total up, honey, howl
  silhouetted against that albino dime
in the sky. I’ll hunt Winter’s young, throttle

    each day til something hot starts
  running, steaming in the beam-spill
through the stripped boughs. Everybody’s

    chalking their fallbacks up to Mercury,
  but I’m talking time’s blood to coat
the throat, talking apex killer energy—

    this freezing hemispherical spell’s worst
  nightmare: me as Summer’s ghost, lupine and
loose where I sure as shit shouldn’t be.


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Mothers in the World Above and Below

By Abby Horowitz

Your mother haunts the hardest ; that’s what Selah’s told whenever she starts to whine: why hasn’t she come yet to pick me up?

Her mother haunts the hardest, so Selah is at the care center the whole day long, so long that Ms. Drae takes pity on her and gives her second servings of afternoon snack. The other kids trail after their parents up to the parking lot and off to home and there’s Selah again, all alone in a playground full of nobody, or at least nobody that she can see isn’t it possible that she’s got her own ghosts? Oh, get out of your head and get onto those swings, Ms. Drae tells her; then her eyes sink back down to her phone.

Selah swings, she jumps, she slides. Lady-like, please, Ms. Drae calls when Selah’s robe slips up by her thighs, but Selah ignores her. Let the world see her underwear; if only there were someone to look. She takes a clump of dirt and rubs it onto her leg. Look! she says, running up to Ms. Drae, A bruise! But Ms. Drae only rolls her eyes and shoos her away rather than tell her (again) what of course she already knows: you can’t have bruises if you don’t have blood.

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Commuting

By Michael Carlson

The whiteboard was blank, leaning against our elm tree. I uncapped my marker and wrote: “Broke and Craving Pancakes.”

Our red tent had broken zipper teeth. The nylon flap hung open, curled like a sick tongue. I ducked inside, knelt by Shay wrapped in a sleeping bag, and rubbed his shoulder until he woke. Purplish-brown eyes, low-stubbled jaw. Long black hair splayed across a thin pillowcase.

I smoked a cigarette in my rocking chair. Shay emerged into the honeyed light, scratching the back of his head. He took forever with his tan work boots, the gum-soled ones I had lifted from Walmart. Mouth open and laces in hand, Shay watched a robin striking dirt.

“Come on, I’m hungry,” I said, handing him a cigarette.

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Stay

By Robin Rosen Chang

My memory wanders like a dog,
searching for treats and looking for balls,

but my mother’s memory
never lost track of anything,

like the time I didn’t call her
in the hospital after her surgery
when I was thirteen,

or the time I told her I wanted
to live with my father
and his new wife,

or the time the police questioned me
after someone torched a neighbor’s fence.

I wish I could’ve told her I’m sorry
but her memory slunk away.

My memory fetches old bones, reminders
I strayed. Across a border,
I smuggled dope. I swallowed
unprescribed prescription pills,
was careless with sex.

Is it worse to recollect or forget?

I wonder if this dog will get lost.
Will it skulk from yard to yard
or stand at the fence, yelping
and howling at nothing?


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Dream

By William Olsen

Driving in rising fog to my fading father, I’m surrounded
as if by a mind of erasure, turning trees into apparitions,
so they look dead in fog, even the young ones, especially
dead-looking are the young ones receding in staked lines
into the absence where still other trees have already receded,
the stubble fields are no more, houses are no more,
no more human memory, and the straightaway road
drops away with the seeming duty of reaching my father—
released are the proximities and distances of eyesight,
yet the usual dread, holding the wheel, is not stopping at all,
a shallows of headlit asphalt always just ahead,
a highway of missing fields, fog risen from the unseen—
too everywhere to have an end or a beginning,
the car lights have no past—no place on earth—


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Father Sleep

By William Olsen

Walking away after watching over sleep, sleep having claimed my
father, sleep now having the face of my father,
having put on that face all of his life and now
sleep must know that he’ll fall beyond sleep,
father sleep seeming to want more from him,
father sleep will never be happy long,
father sleep that almost never withheld itself and when it
did he’d call us, and forget he ever called us,
he’d call us sixty times in one night
until we stopped answering.


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Infinity

By William Olsen

Nancy and I had been talking with him about whether infinity is, or
is only mathematical delusion? Like, say, between irrational numbers,
where nothing is too small for infinity. And whether mathematics itself
will end in a last, absolute prime number that won’t be divided. All
we could say, though, was this, that the universe has a finite life and,
while the light of the stars knocks about for another 40 billion years,
a finite ghost-life. We put it simply when there is no simple. Finite
like us. It will die like us. Isn’t that weird? His face lit up despite
the Never Again. He cried out in joy, “the universe is an ANIMAL!”


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Questions

By William Olsen

Julie. Jaimie. Maya. Clayton with a reputation for being the
least far gone has fallen on the floor again. Missy with her
ever sour face and her rare bursts of humor. Or the nameless
woman in Memory Care who’d come out of her room at the
end of the hall naked for anyone, her face with the beam of
having accomplished something nobody even dreamed before.
Marilyn cradling the doll that puzzles her in a quieting way.
Dick a World War II vet with Sansabelt pants always asking
after his belt. He’d sidle up to me because I knew his name.
Always smiling. And Jerry, a Colonel who served in Vietnam
brazenly stealing from his lunch mates, right off the plate,
or pounding the locked metal door every day right about
noon, and, no matter why, ready to demote the lot of us.


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Carls

By Craig Bernardini

My husband and I have two neighbors named Carl. One Carl lives in the house next to the house next to ours. The other lives seven houses away in the opposite direction, on the other side of the street. The nearer Carl—Furtive Carl—bikes around the neighborhood on an old Schwinn five-speed with an orange flag clipped to the seat. We’ll hear him coming before we see him, because he likes to ring his bell, as if to say, Carl’s here! He seems to ring it whenever it suits him; we’re never sure if he deliberately rings in front of some people’s houses, but not others’, and if so, what it means.

This bike-riding and bell-ringing would be tolerable enough if Furtive Carl didn’t fire up his excavator in the middle of the night to perform some ambiguous labor in his backyard.

We never see Furtive Carl outside his house except on his bike—never see more than the elbow of his excavator over the fence a house away. Gregarious Carl, on the other hand, spends entire days in his front yard, wearing nothing but Bogs and longjohns, hacking away with trowel or hoe. His work seems to involve the endless, tormented carting of wheelbarrows full of earth between one part of the yard and another. As he grunts and sweats, he caterwauls away to the opera that blares from speakers pushed up against his window screens. If anyone passes by, he calls out, loudly enough that he can be heard over the music, and waves his arms over his head, as if to fend off a buzzard that had mistaken him for carrion.

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My College Boyfriend Is at Bolt Coffee

By Julie Danho

I see him while brushing past—
bird’s-nest blond, raggedy
goatee, the striped hoodie

rough as burlap—but when
I open the bathroom door,
I look at myself and laugh

because I’m forty-five,
and so, somewhere, is he,
and the man-boy out there

with his latte and Nietzsche
must be in his early twenties,
the same as Adam in my dorm

about to play me the Pixies,
holding the disc by the edges
like a diamond, wearing

on his wrist a cafeteria spoon
that matched the one (where
could it be?) he’d just given me.


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Western Mount

By Madalyn Hochendoner

I didn’t know what qualityover quantity meant

a buck knife you winat the auction?

skin mount the ten-pointwestern mount the rest

all I knew was I wantedto be endless

stuff me full of saltkeep me on ice

me and my shadowin the alien field

low shrubsand no topsoil

what would it takecall me a coward

stuck between the riverand the lightning

all sky


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Here I Am Participating

By Madalyn Hochendoner

in the longstanding practice of readingon the train

and it reminds me of other solo pursuits:

pogo-sticking to the end of the drivewayand back,

buttoning up the front of a shirt, thentucking it in,

ordering the bowl of clams

body popped open

like a compact, like a flip phone

like a hand motioning—blah blah blah

trying to still-life it

to still-love it


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Spring Cleaning

By Emma Wynn

My mother-in-law is upside down ⠀⠀⠀⠀in the dumpster
rooting, somewhere ⠀⠀⠀⠀under the urine-soaked towels
and splintered wood there is a magazine ⠀⠀⠀⠀she hasn’t read
a stained jacket three sizes too small ⠀⠀⠀⠀she knows
she’ll wear again ⠀⠀⠀⠀my partner and I have flown cross-country
to shake mouse droppings ⠀⠀⠀⠀out of her blankets
scrape dirt off the floors ⠀⠀⠀⠀with a putty knife, trash
the medicine tubes ⠀⠀⠀⠀expired before I was born
there’s only one twin bed for us to share ⠀⠀⠀⠀no real food
in the fridge just chutneys on every shelf ⠀⠀⠀⠀every room
a warren of narrow passages ⠀⠀⠀⠀walled with books
about to avalanche ⠀⠀⠀⠀and bury the dogs
barreling in and out ⠀⠀⠀⠀the broken doors
the L.A. dust sifts in everywhere ⠀⠀⠀⠀as if the desert
wants to erase us, she says ⠀⠀⠀⠀I want to take everything beautiful
from her ⠀⠀⠀⠀her son, her broken antiques, the organ
in the living room she can’t play ⠀⠀⠀⠀your mind, she says is
a narrow room ⠀⠀⠀⠀shuttered and cold, an artist
would see ⠀⠀⠀⠀how the room of old newspapers
is only waiting to unfold ⠀⠀⠀⠀into a flock of birds and lift off
through the hole in the roof ⠀⠀⠀⠀I see her dying in a fire
and haul them in stacks to the curb ⠀⠀⠀⠀where she’s dumpster-diving
for the treasures she’s lost ⠀⠀⠀⠀my partner staggers down the path
with another load ⠀⠀⠀⠀sneezing black mucus
and spitting grit ⠀⠀⠀⠀and I need them
to set everything down ⠀⠀⠀⠀give me just a breath, see
we’re the precious rubbish ⠀⠀⠀⠀that has been here all along


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I Just Wanna Be Somebody

By Nancy Eimers

Night and the City (1950, dir. Jules Dassin)

Harry Fabian, stop running across the screen and into the distance
made of alleys and doorways, streets crisscrossing streets
of neon signs with their loops of the cold light any city knows—
stop, because you will have to run again at the end of the movie
that ends you by throwing your body into the river and having a cigarette
flicked after it. How traitorous your flapping coat and trousers and
your comical two-toned shoes. And yet you believed them.
Critics say this movie is modern because it is tough on its characters,
Harry having a “slimy glee,” and yet how his horsy teeth protrude pathetically
when he smiles, how his face sweats each time nobody lends him money,
how the dapper suit comes unbuttoned and gapes and dirties as he runs
toward the end and his eyes look horrified as if he’d found himself beneath a bridge
beyond which it is night and the city burning. This man could push his girlfriend down
in the street and leave her there—in the layers of grays and grims, no white—
or maybe terror is pitiable beyond mercy just for a moment,
maybe each alley is a doorway hoping St. Augustine would even now say brother,
let us long, because we are to be filled
…. Longing has one ending,
longing has another. In one, the girlfriend is comforted by a friend,
in another the hiss of a cigarette tossed into water has the final say. Could Harry be said
to have a soul, even his clothing tries to make the man, and he inside
now frightened now upbeat, the and in one and two and three and four
has him running a last little while, if only as far as the bridge.


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On My Sister’s Buying Twin Plots for Herself and Steve in Greenwood Cemetery Not Far from Elmore Leonard

By Nancy Eimers

You say you like the thought of graves being visited.
As the older sister I fear I won’t be available.

But I’d want to go on leave, take a trip back down or up
or away from the utterness of being gone

twice, in a way, since you will be gone too, we gone from each other,
I’d want my being gone to imagine you having company

and allow me to visit the little graveyard near where you lived,
though maybe I’d find myself standing there—hovering?—

in a sort of bewilderment: what was the reason, does grief
even remember me, remember having a body,

and did I want to make it my business to say something
to you—over you—(quietly

in case one of the nearby houses was listening)
or maybe sing some little song we knew, that the silliest part

in each of us might have been comforted, or confronted
by who knows how far apart we have traveled and when

or if we arrive (from ariver, “to come to land”).
But it touches me, even so, to think of you wanting

graves to be visited (though maybe not as strangers visit
Elmore Leonard, Dickens of Detroit, on Greenwood’s public tours)—

that sense of somewhere to go, small space marked on a map
of a park-like place with houses all around.


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Hospital in Blue Dark

By Deborah Allbritain

All things said at the end have been said.Her wool beanie pulled over her ears.

Horizonal bones laid out on the bed nearlyprehistoric, she is.

How do I get out of here, she keeps whispering to no one
and I think of the artist Richard Diebenkorn

who said that the aim is not to finish, but ohgreat bonfire, I keep losing my train of thought.

Night-blooming jasmine is fertilized at night.Can you smell it yet?

The little bear in her arms is still.


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Dirt

By Maria McLeod

In the weeks and months preceding attempts to rescue me, I had become increasingly despondent. I had developed an urge to dig. It was a fantasy of detachment: asexual, dark, isolated. I took to it the way a person may take to a new job or a new house in a faraway state where they hope to reemerge unrecognizable. I wanted to burrow, to wriggle my way through the murky water table, to traverse the ruins of ancient civilizations, to eat through the slick layers of slate, granite, limestone, and, deeper still, to find the Earth’s hot core, to finally come to rest along the perimeter of that core and to fall into a deep sleep wrapped in ashes, to bake as if in a Dutch oven, a slow kind of smoldering, until my sleep turned into an endless coma, until my flesh melted away from the bones and the bones themselves, thoroughly stewed, went rubbery.

There was no exposed or available land surrounding my apartment, so I went to the lawn of the church next door and dug with my hands. I didn’t penetrate very deeply, but I did dig up enough to fill a rusty lunchbox. The smell of that dirt was the smell of a childhood lived outdoors. My stolen portion—special thanks to Our Lady of the Immaculate Conception—included a fragment of Styrofoam cup, countless dead insects of an indecipherable origin (at least to the naked eye), three live earthworms, and a bug which resembled, on a very small scale, an armadillo. And, of course, there was the dirt: black damp topsoil which, when pinched together, stuck. It was the type of soil gardeners of drier states might worship, but it was spring in Michigan, and this was the kind of soil one expected and didn’t think to celebrate.

I kept that dirt in an old Gallo wine jug next to my bed. Things grew, or tried to, but I thwarted their efforts by intermittently shaking the jug, turning the world upside down and back upon itself. I squashed what life I could and tried to keep the bottle out of the sun. Mostly, I used the dirt as an inspiration for my fantasies, as a portal to an unworld, the place I sought, without let up, at every opportunity. Prior to my fantasy sessions, which could be best described as a depressive brand of meditation, I eked a bit of that dirt out, and, like communion, took a dollop upon my tongue, careful not to chew. The first time was a bit shocking and not at all pleasant. I was careful not to include anything visibly living and tried not to think about the possibility of insect or worm excrement. Eventually, I let my saliva do its duty of breaking it down, dissolving and transforming it into a digestible form. That is, at some point, I swallowed it.

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IN THE DAYS OF CHILDHOOD AND VIOLENCE—

By Shelly Cato

One Morning Before School

A tricorn hook pierced a night
       crawler before
       entering a boy’s
       thumbnail—
       the bone

At the same moment
      a grain of grit shifted
      into his mother’s left eye
      which remained to stick—
      twitch

On her cutting board
       apple peelings wilted—
       and the hound
       outside jowled
       ham fat 

Behind a shed
       seldom used for skinning
       the boy waited  
       for his school bus—
       nursed blood

from his thumb—believed
       in the way his mother
       arranged his lunchbox—
       believed he would live
       to open his lunchbox

that day


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Paprika

By Lory Bedikian

Not every song on the radio is a great song. Usually
it airs because someone knows someone knows someone.

There are most likely a million songs that will never
make it to any Billboard top chart ranking yet will

kick the amp, graze the sound factor with tonal bliss.
I like calling it phenomenal. To give examples would be

dangerous. So instead, one could say, a song needs
to be a bit like paprika. Before we go there, let’s imagine

a punk band named Paprika. Perfect. Even better,
a vocal artist who goes by just: Paprika. Catchy.

We never really knew where it came from. Maybe
just another ground red pepper, but it was what

we always fell back on. Sometimes spicy, sometimes
smoked, sweet. Music. It’s what we are all looking for

all of our lives, just in different incarnations.
Let’s forget the song or I’ll never tell you the story

of how paprika was my mother’s diva and crooner both,
the spice she believed, with all her soul and lashes,

could save any cooked dish from ruin. Paprikah tuhrehk!
Meaning “put paprika on it!” However, in Armenian

addressing you in the second-person, plural, formal,
sounds like, although only two words: all of you, listen to me,

before it all gets thrown out, get the paprika, sprinkle it on, damn
you all!
My mother. A woman who saved nothing,

but thought almost anything could be saved from ruin.
Mended socks, shortened the cocktail dress because

she never went anywhere really, but shorter she could
wear it to work, to her job selling formaldehyde-filled

furniture at Montgomery Ward, waited for commission
checks, came home late because it was her turn to close

the register, waiting for her between asphalt and neon
lights. Almost forgot we were talking about the belief

that one could save things from ruin. Last night I almost
forgot that my mother was dead, gone for four months now.

I know paprika is not my style. At least as a spice. Just as
I’m certain that there are too many songs not being heard

because someone’s got to know someone and someone
else has got to close the register before the walk home.


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Thinking About My Father’s Erector Set from 1948

By Jen Siraganian

Rarely, my father speaks of the slow rubble piling,
before months sped hotter than his parents expected.
They thought it would pass, unaware of what aches
appear later. He was eight. This was before
walls, checkpoints, talk of two states.

Let’s focus on one wound at a time. I can only tell
a story diluted. I’ll try more softly—my father had toys,
then he didn’t. He had a childhood, then he didn’t.

Here is me at a sunlit kitchen table in California,doubling as American and something like coarse salt.

How often I hear “it’s complicated” when I mention
my father grew up in Palestine, went to school in Palestine,
immigrated to the U.S. as a Palestinian refugee.

His voicemail last week— don’t post anything online .

For years, he lived in no-man’s-land, and I,
half-Armenian, half-daughter of a man
from half of a land that is half of me.

When I visited, could I call the wall beautiful, but only
the painted side? My grandmother’s friend spit on
for shopping on the wrong street in Jerusalem.
Jews walk on one, Muslims the other.
She’s neither. I started paying a man to do the errands .

Seeing my father’s childhood home, its walls
adorned with sniper fire and a gravity of collisions.
It consumed me, bullet holes as common as commas.

In the Armenian Quarter, the pottery store owner
said he would close before things worsened.
Palestine his home, until it wasn’t. Truths stitched
into my grandmother’s embroidery. Did I tell you
she left that too? Here is an echo no one asked for,
singing of a home in Jerusalem before Armenians evaporated.

At the airport, I, though not yet vapor,
say nothing to the Israeli passport agent.Not telling him I visited Palestine. Not asking
for the return of the toys my father left behind


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Survival of the Unfit: A Retrospective

By Jodie Noel Vinson
Excursion to St. Fé—Thistle Beds—Habits of the Bizcacha—Little Owl—Saline Streams—Level   Plain—Mastodon—St. Fé—Change in Landscape—Geology—Tooth of extinct Horse . . . Flocks   of Butterflies—Aeronaut Spiders—Phosphorescence of the Sea—Port Desire—Guanaco—Port St. Julia—Geology of Patagonia—Fossil gigantic Animal . . . Causes of Extinction

(Charles Darwin, Voyage of the Beagle )

Tongue crimson in morning ulcerated—stomach constricted dragging—Feet coldish—Pulse 58 to 62—or slower and like thread. Appetite good—not thin. Evacuation regular and good. Urine scanty (because do not drink) often much pinkish sediment when cold—seldom headache or nausea.—Cannot walk abv ½ mile—always tired—conversation or excitement tires me much

(Charles Darwin, note to Dr. Chapman)

Charles Darwin had “taken the horizontal,” as he would have put it as a seasick young man on board the Beagle . He lay in bed, snowy beard cascading over the coverlet that shrouded his six-foot frame. Emma could see her husband was in so much pain he was “longing to die.” Their daughter Henrietta, hovering bedside, lamented how “this terrible nausea still goes on.” Darwin, before passing away on that April afternoon in 1882 at age seventy-three, answered with the equanimity of one who has lived in daily discomfort: “It is not terrible. But it is nausea.”

At this point, Darwin had been ill for over half his life. “I was almost quite broken down,” he described his chronic ailment in a journal, “head swimming, hands trembling and never a week without violent vomiting.” The naturalist took copious notes on his malady over the years, during which his stomach caused him “incessant discomfort, I may say misery,” as he once wrote to his cousin William Fox, predicting: “I shall go to my grave, I suppose, grumbling and growling with daily, almost hourly, discomfort.”

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On Seeing Quail While Hiking in the Arastradero Preserve

By Joyce Schmid

for my husband

The little plumplings strut across the chaparral,now fly off, fast and low.

I haven’t thought of quail for years—
not since the damp December
when your father died.

You’d grown up in that San Francisco house,
a child in the same twin bed he was to lie in
asking “Am I still alive? My heart still beats?”

Afterward, you had a can of quail eggsas a birthday gift for me.

I pictured how you left the bedside,
woozy from the world of dying,
trudged down Noriega to the stores

and saw that jewel-green can
with Chinese characters and quail eggs on it,
luminous as South Seas pearls,

each egg a single cell—instructions to create a life.

The covey lands again,
goes back to scratching in the weeds,
each small head nodding yes with every step.

You say you have no memory of quail eggs.
But you do remember leaving
in the middle of your father’s

dying to findthe perfect present.


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Birdcall

By Kelan Nee

It woke me, the high slung
pitch & swoop of sound.
Someone told me once
that a cardinal holds a soul
of someone lost: red, tufting.
& every day for two years
cardinals descended
on the locust tree,
the only one in the backyard.
More than I could count.
& I learned their songs. I
learned how they sing.
Until I moved. Now I know
a man who lost his son.
He rides his bike & sees
his boy in robins. He told me
I don’t believe it’s the spirit
of my son, but I see them
& I think—& I like it.

& there you are today:
careless, sitting on the peak
of the wooden fence, blazing.
The sky today is too blue,
cloudless, for this kind
of stillness. Sometimes
I make your noise
back to you with my mouth.
Most times I watch
the feathers fill & deflate,
count their creases
like a well-worn face.
& today, at least, I like it.


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The Kingdom

By Charlie Schneider

The Big Man was to walk five iron steps up to the linoleum ante-level behind the curtains; someone was to hold out a cup of water if he was thirsty. He was to turn left, flashing trademark alligator-print sock, then walk three paces into the danger zone near the edge of the camera’s eye, then look at the sign that said PAST THIS POINT YOU ARE ON CAMERA so he could adjust himself in any sense before seducing the millions, or trying to. There is a better world, folks, he was to say, where we meet the crawling deserts with a trillion trees, where we shake hands after work worth doing, where money’s just confetti for the grand opening of a high-speed train-line, where there’s meatless meat on every plate, local and delicious, where guilt is optional, a novelty, et cetera.

Trouble was, I didn’t tape around a single sniveling ruffle of carpet. Did the Big Man trip? He did. Did he fall? He did. Knee fractured, image dented. My job? Way gone. Three months later the primary draws near, and all I’m doing is plundering my savings and rollerblading. I’m the champion of Bleloch Street; I know all its heaves and divots. The larches in my apartment complex’s court- yard whisper: now is the time, get your job back, stop moping, call Tricia, find another candidate, get back in the ring, don’t forget us, call Tricia.

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High Tide and Full Moon in Paradise

By Ken Holland

I’m waiting for the rain to grow tired enoughto put itself down.

The rivers are flooded with ill-will andshopping carts freed from Walmart servitude.

People stop talking about the apocalypsethe moment it becomes one.

People stop taking out the garbagewhen they see what’s floating in their backyard.

Outside my window, the rivering street riversto the left, while my neighbor across the way

sees the street rivering to the rightand refuses to understand how it could be the same river.

I’m reading a book on the means and methodsof early seafarers.

I’m reading my DNA for trace elementsof Polynesian blood.

My orchid has pinned a tropical flower above its ear.My Persian is stalking the mirage of a dry oasis.

I’ve come to enjoy the mystery of dinneronce the labels have long soaked off,

while my wine still has the grace notesof the last vintage blessed by drought.

My neighbor swims over and asks if he can borrowa cup of mercy.

My neighbor swims back with my gunwhich his lawyer will use to execute

his last will and testament, as a jury is convenedto bear witness that no one’s yet pled guilty

to living in a state of innocence.


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As Is

By Susan Blackwell Ramsey

That house on the corner is for sale
again. Last week it flaunted SOLD

over the gap-toothed retaining wall,
the sparse weeds in the barren beds,

the desiccated hedge. And now
the sign is gone. So are the weeds.

The fallen bricks are balanced back
into the wall, and near the steps

someone has mulched the beds halfway,
as far as a single bag goes.

I laugh, it feels so personal.
I recognize the scramble up

that gravel bank, repair instead
of maintenance—my housekeeping,

my teeth, my spine, my charity,
all after-patched, too little too late.

My mental double-entry weighs
regret against effort and expense,

while sloth and wishful thinking keep
both thumbs on the scale. I have two friends

who silently agreed to let
their house disintegrate, then sold

“As Is” and walked away content.
Bad for a body or realtor, still

I nod companionably at that mulch.
Maybe too little will be enough.


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In the Midst of It

By Gregory Djanikian

The woodpeckers are making holes
in the eaves of my house,
destroying some small part of it
while I count the wood chips
falling from the sky.

Isn’t it lovely that the natural world
can be so companionable,
keeping me frazzled and deeply alert?

Yesterday afternoon, the sky turned gray
as if it were going to thunder and rainthough it never did,
what a turnaround.

Sometimes it’s all you need,
a little reprieve, a surprise
to make you think
it’s not all ruthless
even as the shots ring out
in the heart of the city.

It’s the life we’re given
the pulpit managers say,
some of us having more life than others.

The woodpeckers are still at it,
doing what they are born to do
and I’m throwing tennis balls at them,
I’m squirting a jet stream
of water from my hose.

They disappear, then cheerfully come back.
There’s no manual that says
everything will stay as it is.

Look at the sky.It’s as clear as day.

In another hour,
I might have to bolt the doors and windows
against the hurricane onrush of all that keeps me weathering away

from those long expansive afternoons
when I was young
and the wind was a feather in my hair.


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“Chucking the One Hip Out”: Dance as Joy and Resistance

We asked ten writers to comment on the use of dance and dance imagery in poems. The following feature includes:

  • Sara Henning on Ross Gay’s “Burial”
  • Sarah Nance on Lucille Clifton’s “untitled” (1991), “God send easter,” “spring song,” “homage to my hair,” “my dream about being white,” “untitled” (1996), “the poet,” “from the cadaver,” “amazons,” “in salem,” and “1994”
  • Christopher Kempf on Frank Bidart’s “Ulanova at Forty-Six at Last Dances Before a Camera Giselle”
  • Hugh Martin on Yusef Komunayakaa’s “To Have Danced with Death”
  • Jesse Lee Kercheval on Gerald Stern’s “The Dancing”
  • Jennifer Schomburg Kanke on Annie Finch and The Furious Sun in Her Mane
  • Bonnie Proudfoot on Rainer Maria Rilke’s “The Spanish Dancer”
  • Therese Gleason on Anne Sexton’s “How We Danced” and “The Wedding Ring Dance”

My Mother, Baryshnikov: Dance as Joy in Ross Gay’s “Burial”

By Sara Henning

My mother never took formal dance lessons, but that didn’t stop her from hanging a large portrait of Mikhail Nikolayevich Baryshnikov in our living room. Saturday afternoons, I’d sometimes catch her, bare feet and leg warmers, leaping across the kitchen floor or spinning like a top, MTV blaring. She danced without form or technique and since I, too, was not a dancer, I had neither knowledge nor language for the magic she created with her body: jeté, pirouette . What mattered was that I saw my single mother joyful in the kitchen of our small duplex. I saw my mother—same woman forced to bury my father a handful of years before—exuberant. I didn’t know how important these small moments of joy would be when my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer at the age of 59, how I would hold onto them when bilirubin from a failed liver turned her jaundiced, how I would hold them even harder as she was moved to hospice, my desperate daughter’s clutch becoming vice grip as she took her last breath in May of 2016.

Shortly after my mother passed away, I encountered a copy of Ross Gay’s gorgeous collection of poems Catalog of Unabashed Gratitude (2015), which I devoured in one sitting. It was during this time that I discovered his remarkable poem “Burial,” a poem I would turn to constantly during the throes of my personal mourning.

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“dancing the syllables”: Lucille Clifton and Dance as Poetic Practice

By Sarah Nance

“when i stand around / among poets,” Lucille Clifton writes in an untitled poem from her 1991 collection quilting , “sometimes / i hear [ . . . ] one note / dancing us through the / singular moving world.” Here, Clifton configures a communal space for poets where some adjoining strand—what she calls a “single music”—transforms their ordinary path through life into a dance. In drawing a connection between dance and poetry, Clifton evokes a long poetic tradition (consider how villanelle , as one example, comes from the Italian word for “dance”) and forges an association she both troubles and expands in other work. Over the course of her forty-five year poetic career, Clifton takes what are on the surface simplistic references to dance—something one does for joy, praise, or worship—and crafts nuanced claims about embodiment, writing, and Black resistance.

In Clifton’s early work, dance is configured at first as a kind of religious ecstasy, such as in “God send easter” from her 1972 collection good news about the earth . There, the poem’s subjects “dance toward jesus” as they:

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The Many Ghosts of Pomona

By Christopher Kempf

The first time I encountered it—in the June 2007 issue of Poetry , alongside work from the late Craig Arnold and Claudia Emerson, and just before I entered the MFA program at Cornell—I understood neither the first nor last word in the title of Frank Bidart’s magisterial long-poem “Ulanova at Forty-Six at Last Dances Before a Camera Giselle .

The former, as it turns out, is Russian ballerina and Stalin favorite Galina Ulanova, the Bolshoi’s prima ballerina assoluta for sixteen years from 1944 to 1960.

The latter is the classical masterwork Giselle , a tragedy of star-crossed love between its eponymous peasant girl and a disguised nobleman, its doomed romance steeped in the paranormalia of nineteenth-century Gothic; after Giselle dies of heartbreak, for instance, she is resurrected by an occult fairyhood known as the Wili, the ghosts of betrayed women who avenge themselves by dancing men to death-by-exhaustion. Though Freud likely never saw it, Giselle anticipates those notions of “hysteria” on which he would elaborate, since Giselle’s frantic dancing was perceived at the time as a symptom of silent—and problematically sexualized—madness. Bidart glosses this etiology midway through the poem:

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Rocking, or Rolling, on Silent Chrome Coasters

By Hugh Martin

If “America is,” as John Updike wrote, “a vast conspiracy to make you happy,” then one might look—though, for awhile, you couldn’t look —at President Bush’s 1991 blanket ban on photographing coffins carrying dead American soldiers. Maybe the ban didn’t ensure “happiness,” but it did conspire to make sure the American public wouldn’t be bothered with images which might, perhaps, provoke unhappiness, or at least some discomfort.

In Yusef Komunyakaa’s poem, “To Have Danced With Death,” from his 1988 collection Dien Cai Dau , the narrator recounts returning alongside other soldiers from Vietnam, and then trying to exit the plane as two hearses arrive. As the speaker waits in line, he describes how their return gets halted, abruptly, when a “black sergeant first class . . . / stalled us on the ramp.” Shattering any warm and fuzzy feelings about homecoming, the speaker quips that this sergeant “didn’t kiss the ground either.” From there, the bleakness intensifies: “ . . . two hearses sheened up to the plane / & government silver-gray coffins / rolled out on silent chrome coasters.” Bizarre as it sounds, these hearses appear to provide brand-new coffins for the bodies of soldiers, probably in body bags or other containers, still on the plane.

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The Dancing

By Jesse Lee Kercheval

Gerald Stern’s “The Dancing” included in This Time: New and Selected Poems (W.W. Norton & Company, 1984) begins like this:

      In all these rotten shops, in all this broken furniture
      and wrinkled ties and baseball trophies and coffee pots
      I have never seen a postwar Philco
      with the automatic eye
      nor heard Ravel’s “Bolero” the way I did
      in 1945 in that tiny living room
      on Beechwood Boulevard, nor danced as I did
      then, my knives all flashing, my hair all streaming,
      my mother red with laughter, my father cupping
      his left hand under his armpit, doing the dance
      of old Ukraine . . .

W hen I read this poem I see a child-sized version of the adult Gerry Stern I knew, dancing, spinning in circles. I see him as he was in 1984 when I took a class with him at the Iowa Writers’ Workshop, his bald dome framed by unruly dandelion puffs of gray hair. He was 59 then, but young in the time he had spent in poetry world. His second book, Lucky Life , the one that turned the world’s eye his way, had been published just seven years earlier in 1977 when he was already 52.

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The Echo of Meter: On En-Rhythming and The Furious Sun in Her Mane

By Jennifer Schomburg Kanke

I went to a party once during my doctoral program where I noticed a man weaving back and forth as he chatted up some of the young women in the program. It wasn’t full on creepy, just sort of . . . odd. As I got closer to the group, I noticed that his speech was also a bit off, but in a mesmerizing way. He didn’t seem drunk. He didn’t seem on the make (or at least not more so than many other people there). But what was going on here? When I asked a friend about him, she said, “Oh, that’s his thing. Dude comes to every party talking in iambic pentameter like it’s 1606 or something.”

Was it an intentional flex? Maybe. But another possibility is that it was just the aftereffects of his intense study of early modern English literature. He might have been inadvertently engaged in what feminist poet and critic Annie Finch has called “en-rhythming.” In her book How to Scan a Poem , Finch defines en-rhythming as “the process of accustoming one’s ear and body to the sound of a particular rhythm in preparation for writing, reading, or scanning that meter.” According to Finch, the process can work by reading poems out loud, making music with a drum, or dancing in time with the desired meter/rhythm. Could it have been that all of his exposure to Shakespeare and Donne left those iambs so stuck to his soul that he couldn’t even engage in small talk without the echo of blank verse in the wings?

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Beneath Her Feet: Rilke’s “The Spanish Dancer”

By Bonnie Proudfoot

It’s a warm spring evening on La Rambla, a street leading from the Port of Barcelona into the main city, a wide avenue lined with trees, shops, and restaurants, thin lanes of traffic, and a center island full of people strolling or dining outdoors. It begins to drizzle as we join a group on a narrow sidewalk. The queue flows forward, bottlenecking at a doorway leading into a foyer, barely wide enough for a ticket-taker and a sandwich-board sign advertising featured performers. We are at Tablao Flamenco Cordobes . Photos and reviews line the walls, and our group heads upstairs into a small, crowded, circular theater, arched stucco walls stenciled with Moorish motifs, rows of wooden chairs arranged between pillars around a small stage ( tablao ). We are offered a glass of sweet, dark sangria. The house lights dim.

And so, it begins. Two male guitarists and two percussionists whose wooden sticks rhythmically strike the floor are seated under an archway at the rear of the tablao . Just out of sight, a tenor ( el cante) begins to sing. His tones rise and fall, stretching out syllables as if his vocal cords merged with the vibrato of a violin, as if he is almost weeping. As the song concludes, from behind the archway, a woman with long dark hair steps forward. She wears a tight, sleeveless, bodice, a fringed, knotted shawl, ruffled skirt slightly raised in the front. In deliberate, high steps, clapping her hands as if to gather both the tempo and the audience, she circles the stage, skirt flaring, boot heels accenting the percussion. It is impossible to look away.

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“Doing the Undoing Dance”: Anne Sexton’s Brutal—and Brave—Struggle for Agency

By Therese Gleason

Dance imagery abounds in Anne Sexton’s ouevre, but the waltzes and allusions to fairy-tale-inspired ballets in her poems are characterized by compulsion and madness like that of the girl in “The Red Shoes” whose feet “could not stop” doing “the death dance.” In this and other archetypal tales interwoven in Sexton’s poems, danger—a wolf, a witch, a dark wood—lurks beneath the choreographed steps of the perilous rites of passage to womanhood, especially marriage. As Sexton’s truth-telling, taboo-shattering work attests, breaking destructive intergenerational cycles to chart a new path—symbolized by the amputated feet in the red shoes that “went on” and “could not stop”—is an ongoing, even violent struggle.

In her 1971 collection, Transformations , Sexton reinterprets and revises stories such as “Cinderella,” “Briar Rose,” “Rapunzel,” “The Maiden Without Hands,” and “The Twelve Dancing Princesses” with a personal (and female/ feminist) lens. (Notably, a number of the fairy tales in Sexton’s poems are also classical ballets with famous waltzes, such as Tchaikovsky’s The Sleeping Beauty and Swan Lake .) Yet Sexton’s preoccupation with these themes transcends just one collection, permeating her entire body of work. In particular, marriage, as an institution—and as a reflection of dysfunctional relationships in the family of origin—is dissected under Sexton’s brutally honest and psychologically astute gaze in numerous subsequent poems, including “How We Danced” (number two of six parts in the poem “Death of the Fathers” ( The Book of Folly , 1972) and “The Wedding Ring Dance” (in the posthumously published 78 Mercy Street , 1978). These mirror-image poems expose cycles of abuse and oppression at the hands of the father (both literal and symbolic), and they articulate the struggle for female selfhood and self-expression.

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“The Dancing” by Gerald Stern

By Lisa Bellamy

Over decades, the late Gerald Stern crafted an exuberant, talkative, and highly-performative narrator. His first-person narrator’s consciousness—his loves, memories, opinions, and passions (personal, literary, intellectual, and spiritual) —is itself the true subject of the poems. External activities, objects, and other characters, in constant interaction, offer an opportunity for the narrator to react, explore, and reveal himself and his world.

“The Dancing,” like so many Stern poems, is a poem of largesse: very much in the lyric mode, existing outside conventional, linear time. The core scene in “The Dancing” is a family of three simply dancing together, in a spontaneous, joyful moment. It is a scene of heightened, intimate intensity, against forces of evil and inequality.

The narrator’s consciousness broadens past the moment, though: space is elastic, in motion. The narrator is active, mobile, depicting a mother, father, and child dancing in 1945 Pittsburgh, even—as noted with irony, and underlying sadness and horror—there is “other dancing,” thousands of miles away in Poland and Germany.

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Dada Dance

By Maya Sonenberg

In May 1968, the Merce Cunningham Dance Company premiered Walkaround Time , their homage to Marcel Duchamp, that grand Dadaist. The idea for this work had been ignited the previous winter at the sort of dinner party one can only imagine taking place in the New York City artworld of the time, with Duchamp and his wife Teeny, composer John Cage (Cunningham’s life and artistic partner,), and painter Jasper Johns (the company’s artistic advisor) in attendance. While Cage and Teeny played chess, Johns sidled up to Cunningham and asked if he’d be interested in “doing something with the Large Glass ,” Duchamp’s famous artwork more formally called The Bride Stripped Bare by Her Bachelors, Even . “Oh, yes,” Cunningham replied immediately, and Duchamp agreed, as long as someone else would do all the work. [1] Johns took on the job of creating the set, consisting of seven clear plastic boxes silkscreened with motifs from The Large Glass . Several of these stood on the stage, while others hung from the rafters. Composer David Berman was enlisted to create the score, titled … for nearly an hour ….

Much has been written about the specific ways this dance responds to The Bride …, and Cunningham himself noted that he placed numerous references to the work in his choreography. In the following, I’d like, instead, to consider how Walkaround Time aligns more generally with principles of Dada visual art and poetry, ideas reflected, of course, in Duchamp’s work and in The Large Glass and, most importantly for this essay, in the poetry of Tristan Tzara and Hugo Ball.

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Blinded by Love

Poet Lynn Emanuel’s “Blonde Bombshell” meets Café Müller by choreographer Pina Bausch.

By Karen Hildebrand

An elegant light-filled space inside the São Luiz Theater in Lisbon resembles the marble terrace of a palace. A Botticelli style mural fills the wall behind the stage. As I enter, a commemorative plaque catches my eye:

Pina Bausch
Dancou Café Müller
Pela Ultija Vez Em Maio De 2008
No Teatro São Luiz
[trans. Pina Bausch danced Café Muller last time in May 2008 at the São Luiz Theater]

It’s 2017. I’m in Lisbon to attend a literary festival—on vacation from my job in NYC, where I work for Dance Magazine . In a matter of minutes, I will stand on this stage and read my poems—the same stage where the storied choreographer Pina Bausch once performed a dance work I adore. After twenty years of deep engagement with both poetry and dance, it seems I’ve arrived at the literal intersection of my two artistic paths.

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girls/all night long: (re)constructing Sappho

By Jocelyn Heath and Joanna Eleftheriou

This essay alternates between Jocelyn’s voice and Joanna’s, beginning with Jocelyn’s and changing after each section break.

I first heard Sappho as an undergrad when Rosanna Warren, our visiting writer, recited a few lines in Ancient Greek for our workshop. I didn’t need to match word with sound to love the insistent, rhythmic press of syllables rising and falling. The fluidity of a waltz with the intensity of a tango. Lines that spoke what I could not yet understand.

Like the odd-numbered beat of the sapphic stanza, 11-11-11-5, I felt at odds with an even-beat, rise-and-fall meter of the world I lived and wrote in. Something felt incomplete, rather like the fragments I would later learn made up our record of Sappho. But something in these ancient rhythms stirred a familiar step, and like Sappho, I knew “I would rather see her lovely step/and the motion of light on her face” than so much else.

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Sur Les Pointes

By Renée K. Nicholson

It happened well into my thirties, over a decade since I’d last performed, and only a few years from publishing my first full-length collection of poems, Roundabout Directions to Lincoln Center . I’d said the words thousands of times— En pointe. In French, it means “pointed,” as in, “to make a pointed argument.” It can also mean “cutting edge.” Yet, I’d heard this terminology used by dozens of ballet instructors to describe the action of rising up on the toes in pointe shoes— en pointe —and I’d read it hundreds of times in newsletters and marketing materials from ballet companies and schools all over the world. En pointe . Never once had I stopped to consider whether the term was correct or not; my rudimentary French never prompted me to question it.

I was sitting in Studio Nine at American Ballet Theatre, surrounded by other aspiring ballet teachers, some who had been accomplished dancers, in the cavernous space. We applied, we were accepted, and traveled across the country and across the globe to learn how to translate our experience as ballet dancers into teaching proper technique.  For me, it was easier to get a position teaching ballet than finding one teaching creative writing.

Raymond Lukens, one of the coauthors of the ABT National Training Curriculum and an internationally renowned pedagogue, wasn’t imposing perched on a tall stool at the front of the class. He was often warm and funny. Still, he was intimidating.  He’d traveled to all the major schools, studying the methods of the best ballet teachers in the world.

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why, is it Love

By Victoria Hudson Hayes

but if a living dance upon dead minds
why, it is love; [1]

Camille Saint-Saëns’ Danse macabre, Op. 40, opens with a D struck twelve times for midnight, inviting death to emerge from its grave and dance. [2] Its earliest iteration, for orchestra and voice, featured the text of a poem by Dr. Henri Cazalis — Zig zig zig on his violin/The winter wind blows and the night is dark [3] — but audiences objected on the grounds that it made them feel weird, so Saint-Saëns replaced the voice with a violin, Franz Liszt transcribed the piece for piano, and pretty soon it was 1929 and Walt Disney’s skeletons were absolutely cranking it all over the cemetery. [4]

Danse macabre has since scored figure skating routines, whiskey commercials, and a short scene in the first episode of “What We Do in the Shadows.” You can catch it near the end of Shrek the Third and install it as your vehicle’s horn in Grand Theft Auto Online under the title “Halloween Loop 2.” In 1872, it was an appeal: remember death. Now it’s the quintessential spooky jingle.

but at the earliest spear
of sun perfectly should disappear
moon’s utmost magic, or stones speak

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Announcing the Winter Online Exclusive

The latest winter online exclusive from New Ohio Review is now available! Scroll down to read.

The issue includes art by Leo Arkus, Jordyn Roderick, and Zelda-Thayer Hansen; poems from Baylina Pu , John A. Nieves , Matthew T. Birdsall , Elisabeth Murawski , James Lineberger , Johnny Cate , John Wojtowicz , Shelly Cato , Joanne Dominique Dwyer , Erin Redfern , Dustin Faulstick , Madalyn Hochendoner , Michael Derrick Hudson , and Annie Schumacher ; fiction from Mary Cross , Ellen Skirvin , Matt Cantor , Noah Pohl , and Teresa Burns Gunther ; essays from Jill Schepmann and Lesa Hastings ; reviews of work by Anna Farro Henderson, Ron Mohring, Betsy Brown, and Matthew Cooperman by Jenna Brown , Kate Fox , Tessa Carman , and Sarah Haman ; and interviews of Jodie Noel Vinson , Joanne Dominique Dwyer , Allegra Solomon , Johnny Cate , Dustin H. Faulstick , Arya Samuelson , and Noah Pohl conducted by Clare Hickey (Vinson, Solomon, and Samuelson), Rachel Townsend, Cam Kurtz, Parker Webb, and Shelbie Music.

We hope you enjoy.

Thanks for reading,

-The Editors

(a)rs poet(i)ca 

By Baylina Pu

Featured Art: “Stolen Beauty by Leo Arkus

I have been looking at images of AI-generated art all day. Something about 

the control in the brushwork mimics the delirium of a real artist, 

though what “real” means anymore I can’t exactly say. Lately I’ve been 

eating rice crackers at midnight while solving logic problems for fun, 

a bad habit.   There is something
such that, if it is wet, then

everything is wet.  I tell the robot 
to paint “Dream of the Red Chamber,” 

and it gives me a roomful of blood. How many photos did it dissect before 

it could make that? I mean paintings garbled into code, the way a prism 

reassembles light? I ask the machine to show me the fifth dimension: what I receive 

is a door. Its surrounding walls are made of something like stained glass, which spreads 

lattice-like across the floor and ceiling, like the brain of something more beautiful 

than a living thing. The colors shine metallic, though if you look closely the shapes 

appear distorted, confused. What is the robot saying, I wonder. Everything it knows, it learned from us. 


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Aural Projection

By John A. Nieves

I used to believe in the tang of orange
Tic-Tacs—that it had anything to do
with oranges. That three bright sugar

pills in my child-hand could shine
up a dark morning. And they did. What
little magic. What’s so easy to miss

so much. I believed rainbows on
window dew hid tiny treasures, that sneezing
while saying someone’s name meant

they were thinking of me, that everything
I loved would stay forever if I took
care of it, if I did my part. I have almost

none of that now: the purple stuffed
rabbit, my two pet Siamese cats, my best
friend across the way, my whole

family. I used to believe music could
change the weather. I’m lying. I still
do. I still believe people attach themselves

to songs they love, creep into their choruses.
This may be literally true in the science
of memory. This may also make me

superstitious. But, O, when I sing
you, I can almost reach. There is no way
there is nothing there.


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SHASTA GIRL 

By Noah Pohl

Featured Art: “Bumblebee” by Leo Arkus

(March 27) 

Today, I came to work eleven minutes late. My co-worker Lenny said he didn’t know if he could cover for me, even though he thought I was “cool” and “down to Earth” and “pretty for twenty-four,” whatever the fuck that means.  

Lenny is sweaty. He sweats near the hot dogs sometimes, and that’s not cool. I try to avoid Lenny when he’s in one of his moods. He cries loudly in the Target bathroom because of his impending divorce, but he’s also extremely hairy and his eyebrows are out of control. Since his wife left him, he kind of resembles a giant, lumbering piece of sage. I know because I smudged my apartment last night to keep the bad spirits away. 

I also made sure my Target Pizza Hut uniform was clean ’cause I dumped Alfredo sauce on myself yesterday like a total dope. It smelled like hot garbage. Then I got quarters from one of the girls at the registers so I could do my laundry. No more free laundry.

I mean, I feel like that’s a metaphor for something, I just don’t know what. 

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 Trying Not to Lump Together More Unknowns

By Matthew T. Birdsall

“We know what we are, but know not what we may be”
-Ophelia, Hamlet , Act IV, Scene 5

Uncertainty looms heavy before sunrise.
Dark driving , she calls it, at 5:00 AM
to the hospital for her surgery,
when she mentions losing our dog,
Penny, a few months ago—
anxiously lumping together unknowns—
and I had trouble focusing
but I tried to turn the conversation around
with compliments—her outfit, hair, shoes—
but I shut down when she said,
It’s okay, Dad, I know that living is dying

Stuck in the white shock of her wisdom
I wanted to say something to redirect us
but I couldn’t decide whether
she was that conscious of her own mortality
or if she was just being a child—
redirecting gravity away from her upcoming operation
toward something more certain.

At the last minute, the operation was canceled.
As we walked out, my daughter took my hand
because she knew I needed it telling me she felt good .
She said she still missed Penny,
and she would miss her as long as she was alive
me too I said but holding back on diving deeper
trying not to lump together more unknowns,
as we headed home with just enough sun
to get all the way there without headlights.


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Mrs. Love  

By Elisabeth Murawski

Featured Art: “Mr. Love” by Leo Arkus

An adult neither liked nor disliked, 

she taught music appreciation, 

played 78s of Verdi  and Bizet. 

Teens in letter sweaters, we were 

the children she didn’t care 

to know. A thin gold band on a red- 

nailed finger declared she’d snagged 

a Mr. Love so long ago we  

weren’t even born. She seemed resigned 

as our parents were to not going  

anywhere, tapping  her black shoe 

like a metronome while reckless Carmen 

goaded Don Jose, Radames and Aida  

smothered in the tomb scene. 


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today which is hotdog day 

By James Lineberger

today which is hotdog day
at forest hill methodist i ran into
my old high school lit teacher
from the tenth grade
one of the great influences in my life and it really got to me
while i was waiting in line
to put in my order
and i thought about all the other
teachers i used to have who lived and died maybe never
realizing how much they
had meant to their students and here was
a perfect opportunity
to express my gratitude and not to just any teacher
but miss ruby herself but then huh oh
all of a sudden i thought ohmygod what if
my eyes were playing tricks on me
and it was just some little old lady
that somewhat resembled her so just to make sure
i went over to another former student
wanda she used to be wanda yow
i forget who it was she married but wanda
was one of the volunteers
who was bringing food to people’s tables and i said
wanda is that her is it really her
and wanda said oh yeah that’s ruby all right don’t she
look wonderful but she’s
deaf in one ear i think the good one
is her left but you better hurry
if you want to speak to her she’s already
called her grandson
to come pick her up so i left
my order with wanda and circled around
behind ruby’s table
hoping i could surprise her and leaned down
from the left side
with my face just barely touching her hair
which smelled my god like violets
a really refreshing smell
and there was something else some kind
of perfume from elsewhere and
i don’t know how it happened but i was already starting
to weep it was such a profound
moment for me
and my feelings damn near overtook me
but i managed to get it out even
though my voice was shaking when i said miss ruby
until i had you for a teacher
i didn’t know
what great literature was and i—
but then
i just ran out of words and out of breath
and as i started
to pull away
she reached her hand back and slapped
me right in the face
turning around
with a stare like she had seen a ghost
saying oh goodness jimmy is that you i thought it was
a brown recluse


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Flying into Darkness 

By Mary Cross

Featured Art by Jordyn Roderick

Sometimes in the middle of the summer when it was so hot that the tar on the road stuck, like Juicy Fruit gum, to the bottom of my tennis shoes, I’d see a mirage in front of me and think of my grandmother—imagine her a painting. She loved the heat in the summer, and she told me that she even chewed a hunk of tar when she was a little girl. I’d imagine her head was a wide stripe of white across a green-colored canvas, and her hips were shimmering shades of red and caramel; but the craziest of all were her lips—they were yellow buttons, the same kind on my spring coat. At night in our room we shared, I’d think of this painting when I’d watch her remove her Junior Petite coffee-colored stockings, rub her shins with the clinical expertise of a practiced masseuse at the Y, then rest her feet in a bucket of Epsom salts, while I studied the gap between my front teeth with her compact mirror. She’d repeat the story about her sixteen-year-old daughter who died; “Molly, there is nothing worse than losing a child.” She kept a lock of her daughter’s hair in the second drawer of her dresser, along with fortunes from Ray’s Chinese takeout. On the night table, her top teeth sat in a jelly jar painted with the outline of Fred Flintstone. Without her dentures, she sounded as if her tongue were swollen. 

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The Skater

—for Bam Margera
By Johnny Cate

Modus operandi: grace cut with chaos, every
drop-in a death sentence he’d somehow
skirt and skate off to nollie another day. 

If we got our hands on a burned Bam DVD
we’d play it until the player was hot to touch,
until every trick was etched into the mind’s 

fish-eye and we were sketched up
with strawberries trying to land one like him.
The kids who by high school couldn’t hit  

a heater pitch for shit or cared to run suicides
found a home in the sheet metal half-pipe,
a new American pastime and a hero in  

an unhinged prodigy. Jackass came later—what mattered first was the skating, each
varial and crooked grind a live creative act 

that left like a vandal Michelangelo, bank
rails marked with paint, curbs darkened
with candle wax. But the rebellious aesthetic 

was just that— aesthetic. A sly disguise for thesame glory, the guttering flame of a single
God-breathed second. Under Bam’s feet,  

the deck spun like a plywood electron,
elemental and holy: 360 degrees of don’t-care
that would carry him to self-destructive stardom. 

Now, hardly a day goes by that TMZ wouldn’t like
to eat him alive, so I’m pulling up the tape,
posted by a stranger, just to see what I saw  

years ago on those long-gone discs: a man
risking blood and bone with total nonchalance,
his soul sliding recklessly, breathlessly diagonal. 


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Down Jersey

By John Wojtowicz

Featured Art: “Pebbles vs. the world” by Leo Arkus

As a kid, I spent Saturday nights  
underneath this boardwalk, poking a dollar bill  
between cracks, pulling it back  
after luring unsuspecting tourists. 
Now I’m back around, fixing up a friend’s beach bungalow: 
paint-peeling and porch-rotting    
on the bay side of town.  
I’ve only walked the boards a few times 
mostly forgoing views of the ocean 
for beer-drenched nights at the Shamrock. 
Tonight, a thunderstorm rolls in  
and the preacher at the boardwalk chapel 
offers shelter to all but those  
with a still lit cigarette. 
Zombie Crusher and Terrordactyl  
don’t let lightening stop them  
from barreling over jumps made of beach sand 
but the amusement rides have ceased to amuse. 
The tram car watches me. 
I like riding the Sea Serpent with its upside-down  
and backwards thrills; 
how for that 1 minute & 48 seconds 
it’s hard to think about anything  
other than staying alive.  
I like the monster trucks too.  
The way they flatten.  
I put out my Marlboro and take shelter  
in the wood-paneled chapel  
next to a handlebar-mustached-man  
sporting a throwback Hulk Hogan  
t-shirt: Hulkamania is running wild, Brother.
I think about how Dolly Parton  
made a spoof music video  
in which she married Hulk Hogan 
after reading in a tabloid  
that she was having an affair with a professional wrestler.
He’s got a headlock on my heart,
it was a take down from the start .” 
For Dolly, it’s all fertilizer; she’s a western- 
wigged buddha two-stepping through life.  
For me, it’s been more of a hot-coal-  
hop-skip. The rain slows, thunder booms. 
I have no special someone for whom  
to buy a pair of custom booty shorts.  
I grab a beer before the concessions close,  
toss rings on bottles, land quarters  
on plates. The unbridled ocean  
gives me chills. I think about how sailors  
wore earrings worth enough  
to cover the cost of their return and burial,  
salt-slicked mariners 
with no need for gold hoops.  
I bend down to pick up a dollar that disappears
before my fingers can grasp it. 
I think I want to be buried at sea too;  
being decomposed by sea lice  
seems more exotic than earthworms. 


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Like Communion

By Ellen Skirvin 

My dad warned us that aliens were watching him before he disappeared. He also had checked himself into a psychiatric hospital five times throughout my sixteen-year lifetime. During his last visit to the hospital, the doctors said he vanished in the night. His clothes were left in his dresser. The framed photo of my sister and me left on his bedside table. None of the night nurses saw him leave. There were no tied up sheets found dangling outside his open window. The doctors reminded our family that my dad had admitted himself voluntarily and was free to leave at any time. There was nothing they could do. My mom didn’t seem worried at first. He’d left and come back before. One time he left for almost a week and returned with a pet frog that died the next day. Another time he traveled halfway across the country to tour a NASA museum. He needed space; he’d tell us later. Most of the time he checked himself into the hospital for a long weekend, casually packing his car as if he were leaving for a fishing trip.  

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IN THE DAYS OF CHILDHOOD AND VIOLENCE —

By Shelly Cato

Featured Art: Notes and sketches from “Life as distraction as practice as discovery” by Zelda Thayer-Hansen

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ One Morning Before School

A tricorn hook pierced a night
       crawler before
       entering a boy’s
       thumbnail—
       the bone

At the same moment
      a grain of grit shifted
      into his mother’s left eye
      which remained to stick—
      twitch

On her cutting board
       apple peelings wilted—
       and the hound
       outside jowled
       ham fat 

Behind a shed
       seldom used for skinning
       the boy waited  
       for his school bus—
       nursed blood

from his thumb—believed
       in the way his mother
       arranged his lunchbox—
       believed he would live
       to open his lunchbox

that day


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Tilting

By Matt Cantor

It’s been a full year, now. 

It’s October 7th.

I stand at the platform at Kenmore, waiting for a D-train so I can get home to have dinner with my parents. I’m not waiting very hard. They’re going to ask all sorts of questions about what I’ve been working on.  

Don Quixote ,”   I’ll tell them.  

“Hasn’t somebody already written that?”  they’ll ask me.  

“Lots of people have already written lots of things.” —like it means anything, or makes any sort of difference in the direction that I want it to.  

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Featured Art

Detail of “I Carry Our Weight: Artifact” by Zelda Thayer-Hansen, photo by Bee Huelsman

Hymenoptera

By Joanne Dominique Dwyer

This is not a poem about insects of the family Hymenoptera.
It’s not a poem about pounding nails.
It’s not a poem about flashlight tag.
It’s not a poem about famous writers addicted to laudanum.
This is not a poem about the burial of a baby raccoon.
This is not a poem about the core of the sun becoming unstable
   and everything going black and cold.
This is not a poem about the definition of Hymenoptera.
Hymenoptera: derived from the ancient Greek words
hymen and pteron —membrane and wing.
This is not a poem begun in silence.
Before dawn the wolf dogs howling inside the pen.
And a 5:30 am text from a man who says another man
entered his bedroom while he slept—
   and a threat of beating the intruder to death.
This is not a poem about cannonball splashing.
This is not a poem about the softening and weakening of bones in children.
It’s not a poem about parachutes
It’s is not a poem about being born in a field of horses.
This is not a poem about oxygen.
It is a poem about the migration
   of ruby-throated birds and the effects
of artillery on tongues.


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Acquainted with the Night  

By Erin Redfern

Featured art by Jordyn Roderick

At the all-girls school they taught us  don’t fight back: the rapist might get mad.  

Against my will, I remember this  

when I need to take a walk to clear my head .  
When I fear the sound of feet , a distance  

closing. When I drop my eyes in passing,  

my neck for decades bending. On the train 
a man asks me what I’m reading. Show me  

the Great American Writer; I’ll show you  

a man who finds by walking out alone 
what freedom is,  

and, so, America, I want to be 

the kind of woman who walks into night,  
a fine rain, her own thoughts.  

If at dusk I hear a clutch of cries 

and rush of wings from powerlines.  If I love a spread of stars, dark wind in trees. 

If walking is a bodied way of thinking. 

If I love a subway map, a screech of trains. If walking out and back intact is luck. 

If I have been a long time without thinking.

If I wanted to go there by myself

thinking. If I just wanted to go somewhere .  


Quoted phrases and lines are from Robert Frost, “Acquainted With the Night”; Judy Grahn, “A Woman Is Talking to Death”; Kim Moore, “On the train a man asks me what I’m reading”; June Jordan, “Power”; Lisa Shen, “Sixteen Seconds”  


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Flights

By Jill Schepmann

Featured Art: “Spring Returns and So Do I” by Leo Arkus

I walk out of class, my mis-spoken and fragmented explanations of the day racing. A greatest hits of my unworthiness as a teacher. I think of earlier in the day, walking around the lake with a friend. The building I’ve just left is called Lone Mountain, which stands on a hill, in a city of hills, dramatic, grand. And I trick myself again into believing that I belong here. Sometimes, Lone Mountain makes me witness the fog coming off the Pacific to swallow San Francisco’s avenues. Sometimes, the glass buildings downtown. Once, on a rainy, windy day, I looked out my classroom window to see two giant cypress trees grown as one split and fall away from each other, their branches pointed skyward until they came to rest in sudden-found angles, fossilized insects on their backs. 

As I descend the mountain, I think of going home to my new girlfriend in Oakland. Oakland is also new to me. Susannah is making pasta for us. This caretaking, too, is new. I walk a little quicker thinking of the way she comes to unlock the door when I’m too long finding my keys. Her warm lips. Cupping her elbow in my palm. Her cheek resting against mine. I quicken. I quicken. 

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